Warm Winter Salad

by juno on January 31, 2016

I made this up in imitation of a delicious salad served at the wonderful Bandaloop in Kennebunkport, ME (yes, the name comes from Tom Robbins’ Jitterbug Perfume). I recommend a meal there if you’re in the neighborhood—good to make a reservation. Save room and walk down the street afterward to Rococo, for the best ice cream I’ve ever had. I still can’t get their pomegranate cilantro sorbet out of my head—it changed my life in the way that all the art that touches us most deeply does.

Warm Winter Salad

The sum of the parts in this dish is more delicious than the parts alone. Amounts are imprecise, and serve roughly 2-4. Play with ratios of vegetables so that salad is a balance of colors and elements—so that every bite will contain most of the flavors, or so that there are plenty of the things you like the most. Scale up to serve more people.

In a large skillet, adding olive oil as needed, sauté one large red onion, cut into crescent moons. As onion begins to soften, add stem of one large broccoli floret, peeled and cut into pieces. After a moment or two add the broccoli crown, cut into small trees and half trees. Add a good sprinkling of thyme, and a handful or two of pine nuts. Add salt and pepper to taste. When the broccoli is bright green and al dente, add in a couple of big handfuls of grape or cherry tomatoes, and one to two cans artichoke hearts, quartered or cut into sixths. Sauté just until tomatoes are hot.

Fill a salad bowl with several servings of baby spinach leaves. Pour the stir-fry over the spinach, dress with balsamic vinegar and additional olive oil, as needed, and toss until spinach wilts. Add more salt or pepper, as needed.


Shoveling Snow with Buddha

by juno on January 27, 2015

Shoveling Snow With Buddha


In the usual iconography of the temple or the local Wok
you would never see him doing such a thing,
tossing the dry snow over a mountain
of his bare, round shoulder,
his hair tied in a knot,
a model of concentration.

Sitting is more his speed, if that is the word
for what he does, or does not do.

Even the season is wrong for him.
In all his manifestations, is it not warm or slightly humid?
Is this not implied by his serene expression,
that smile so wide it wraps itself around the waist of the universe?

But here we are, working our way down the driveway,
one shovelful at a time.
We toss the light powder into the clear air.
We feel the cold mist on our faces.
And with every heave we disappear
and become lost to each other
in these sudden clouds of our own making,
these fountain-bursts of snow.

This is so much better than a sermon in church,
I say out loud, but Buddha keeps on shoveling.
This is the true religion, the religion of snow,
and sunlight and winter geese barking in the sky,
I say, but he is too busy to hear me.

He has thrown himself into shoveling snow
as if it were the purpose of existence,
as if the sign of a perfect life were a clear driveway
you could back the car down easily
and drive off into the vanities of the world
with a broken heater fan and a song on the radio.

All morning long we work side by side,
me with my commentary
and he inside his generous pocket of silence,
until the hour is nearly noon
and the snow is piled high all around us;
then, I hear him speak.

After this, he asks,
can we go inside and play cards?

Certainly, I reply, and I will heat some milk
and bring cups of hot chocolate to the table
while you shuffle the deck.
and our boots stand dripping by the door.

Aaah, says the Buddha, lifting his eyes
and leaning for a moment on his shovel
before he drives the thin blade again
deep into the glittering white snow.

(Thank you, Jennifer and Becca.)


Molly reads Miracles

by juno on December 10, 2014


Happy Thanksgiving

by juno on November 26, 2014

I’m thankful for this poem.

Minnesota Thanksgiving

For that free Grace bringing us past great risks
& thro’ great griefs surviving to this feast
sober & still, with the children unborn and born,
among brave friends, Lord, we stand again in debt
and find ourselves in the glad position: Gratitude.

We praise our ancestors who delivered us here
within warm walls all safe, aware of music,
likely toward ample & attractive meat
with whatever accompaniment
Kate in her kind ingenuity has seen fit to devise,

and we hope – across the most strange year to come –
continually to do them and You not sufficient honour
but such as we become able to devise
out of decent or joyful conscience & thanksgiving.
Bless then, as Thou wilt, this wilderness board.

—John Berryman, from Collected Poems 1937-1971© The Noonday Press.


I made you a pie

by juno on November 25, 2014

It’s been a long time, mis amores perdidos, so long that I didn’t want to show up empty-handed—I wanted to bring you a gift.

photo 5So I made a pie. I made up a pie. The current draft, several revisions in, might not be the pie I imagined in my mind before I started baking. But then no novel ever is, either. The moment you put one word on the page, and then the next, limitations set in and you will now never create the soaring masterpiece of your imagination. But that doesn’t mean you won’t create something good, in time. Just like life—every choice we make precluding other choices, fixing our path in one direction or another. I’m a big believer in the power of boundaries and limitations, real or artificially created, to stimulate creativity.

Therefore, not the pie I imagined, an elusive creature that may or may not be possible to create within the laws of physics, but a good pie, a pie I can hardly keep my nose out of when it’s warm. I just want to smell and smell and smell its faintly coffee-tinged toffee-like scent.

photo 2It needs a name, but it turns out naming a pie is as hard as naming a novel. Will the similarities between writing and baking never cease! I want to name it desert candy pie, in a nod to the blog of the same name—desert candy is the Arab name/nickname for dates. Mercedes’ recipe for coffee-simmered dates is what first got me imagining this pie. But maybe the word “candy” is misleading. This pie is sweet, but nowhere near as tooth-achingly sweet as its cousin the pecan pie. What do you think?

Of course you will never be able to recreate this pie exactly, even if unlike me you follow recipes to a T. This is another similarity between baking and novels. I might write a novel that means x, y and z to me, but when you read it, with your different sensibility, your different life history, your different loves, it will mean a, b, c, or nothing, or something in between. And your friend down the street—another story altogether. As with the pie. Your eggs will be a smaller or larger, your brown sugar won’t taste quite the same, you’ll use a different roast of coffee, your oven will burn hotter or cooler. Go in with eyes open and hope for the best.

photo 4I suppose I’m supposed to tell you something about the pie. In this draft the filling is dense and creamy, studded with pecans. Notes of coffee and orange come through, and the dates as well. Some people think it has chocolate in it, but it doesn’t.

The crust is gluten-free, tender and flavorful, mostly whole grain. If you have a crust you love, you could substitute it; I recommend adding the orange zest in any case. Even if you make the gluten-free crust, many substitutions are possible. Use flours you know and love, and as long as you keep the weight ratios the same (8 oz. flour to 4 oz. butter, etc.), you will get different results, but probably good ones. I like no more than 25-30 percent starch (potato starch, tapioca flour, arrowroot) to 70+ percent whole grains. Recipes with too much rice flour can turn out gritty or sandy in texture. In one batch I replaced the rice flour entirely with millet, but the crust came out a little on the dry side. The first batch I made was a little too crumbly. In the next batch I added one teaspoon of ground chia seed, which provided just the extra stability the crust needed. If you don’t have chia, you could probably use a teaspoon of ground flax seed (I don’t like the flavor), and maybe a teaspoon of that dried egg replacer powder (mmm-mm), or a teaspoon of xanthan gum, or another half an egg (a bantam egg)—but I haven’t tried those substitutions. What’s the worst thing that will happen? Your crust will still be crumbly but will taste good? Your crust will be a little tough, but will taste good? Your crust will be perfect but will taste like flax? First-world problems.

photo 3How this works: First you prepare the dates and preheat your oven to 350. While the simmered dates are cooling, make the crust. Toast your pecans (at 350, <10 minutes). Watch them, for heaven’s sake—they don’t take long, and I almost always overcook them, which adds bitterness to the pie. Too little is better. Now they will cool briefly while you make the pie filling. (If you really want to know, I have a toaster oven, so I toast the nuts in there and don’t turn on the main oven until the crust goes in the freezer.) Take the crust out of the freezer, scatter the pecans on the bottom, pour the filling over them, and place in preheated oven. Make sure your dish is Pyrex or something that can handle going very cold into a hot oven—that moment always scares me. I would cry if the pan cracked and my yummy filling dripped onto the bottom of the oven. Depending on your oven, the pie will probably take at least 45 minutes, maybe five or ten more, but take a look after 40. Gluten-free crusts brown more slowly than wheat crusts, so I haven’t had to cover the edges of mine with foil, but you might have to. The filling will puff up somewhat and will look dry and toffee-colored on top. Tap it or jiggle the pie—the filling should be fairly firm when you take it out. Let cool on a rack, etc. Whipped cream seems like overkill, but a tiny dollop of crème fraîche might be nice.

2 oz. each tapioca starch, brown rice flour, sorghum flour, light buckwheat flour (not the dark blue, which has a much stronger flavor, unless you want that flavor)
4 oz. butter (1 stick)
1 t. sugar
½ t. salt
1 t. ground chia seed
zest of one orange
1 egg
1 T. cold water


Pulse dry ingredients in a food processor. Cut butter into chunks and pulse until butter is the size of petits pois—until the mixture is uniformly crumbly. This happens quickly. Add an egg and a tablespoon of water and pulse until mixture begins to clump together—ditto. You can test by pressing it together with your fingers to make sure it stays together. Turn the crumbly dough out onto a piece of parchment paper and form it into a disc with your hands. Cover with a second piece of parchment paper, roll out, place it in a 9” glass pie plate and do whatever you like to do with the edges. Then put it in the freezer for at least 15 minutes.

Desert candy pie filling:
12 dates (Medjool, pitted)
1 c. dark roast coffee, brewed strong (we use a French press and grind the coffee more finely than they recommend)
¼ c. brown sugar
5 fat strips orange zest (I use a paring knife)
1 cinnamon stick, broken into several pieces
4 oz. butter
½ c. sugar
3 eggs
1 t. vanilla
1+ c. toasted pecans


Place dates, coffee, brown sugar, orange zest and cinnamon in small saucepan and simmer for 20 minutes. Add butter and turn heat off as soon as it’s nearly melted. Let sit for a few minutes, and then remove the pieces of cinnamon stick (suck the delicious syrup from the crevices before throwing away). Make the crust. Once the crust is in the freezer, put the dates and coffee syrup in the food processor (I don’t wash it in between, just make sure most of the flour is wiped out), puree, add sugar, vanilla and eggs, blend until smooth.

You know the rest.

While working on the orange-scented crust, I got the idea that pumpkin pie would sit well in that crust as well, so I made one of those just to see. If you don’t have a favorite pumpkin pie filling recipe, here’s one that is not too sweet, spicy, and dairy-free.

Pumpkin pie filling:
 1 can pumpkin or squash
1 can full-fat coconut milk
3 eggs
1/3 c. unsulphured molasses (not blackstrap, unless you want the very strong flavor)
¼ c. honey
¼ c. maple syrup
2 t. cinnamon
1 t. ground ginger
¾ t. nutmeg
¼ t. cloves
¼ t. allspice
½ t. salt


Blend all ingredients. Bake at 350 until firm enough not to jiggle in the center. Cool, etc.

And then…

photo 1Stay home. Eat pie. Preferably with a cup of hot black coffee. The line of a play I quote most often to myself, even more than Shakespeare, is from David Davalos’s brilliant and funny play Wittenberg. Faust is introducing Martin Luther to the new wonder drug he’s brought back from the east, coffee. Luther is suspicious, and then relents. “Does it go with eggs?” he asks. Faust, with glee in his voice, answers, “It goes with everything.”

Happy Thanksgiving, all y’all.


Forbidden Fictions

by juno on June 24, 2014

forbiddenfictionFirst published one year ago in The Public Humanist

My husband is teaching a class called “Forbidden Fictions” this summer, to a self-selected group of high school almost-seniors. One of his first thoughts: “This might be the only opportunity I ever get to teach Lolita to high school students.”

He reread the book with far more discomfort this time around, for now he is the father of two 13-year-old girls. I noticed odd behavior when he took it out in public. He practically had to slip it inside a magazine or brown paper cover to read it in the waiting room of a doctor’s office. And the girls’ gymnastics gym, full of pre- and barely adolescent girls? No way. He sat in the car reading that night.

“Well, then,” I said, goading him as is my duty, “if it makes you this uncomfortable, why are you going to subject these poor young minds to it, traumatizing them forever?”

My sister supplied one answer as we stood around discussing the book over coffee on a sunny weekend morning. Wuthering Heights and Lolita were the first books she read, she said, that changed her “understanding of what literature is for or what is possible.” They expanded her ideas about “what might motivate me to read to something that goes beyond escape pleasure.”

(My other sister, telling me about a book she just read, said, “I haven’t loved a book so much since I read…Lolita!”)

My husband sent an email to a group of teacher and reader friends, asking for ideas about supplemental texts for the class, and one woman suggested he look at the 50 Shades of Greyphenomenon, how the book began online in an arena in which people often don’t censor themselves at all. The point is a good one—what does censorship, what does “forbidden” mean in a world in which we have direct access to the sordid contents of each other’s minds from the comfort of our homes? “But,” I howled in dismay, “you can’t teach 50 Shades—it’s not literature!” Maybe the subject matter is risqué—so what? If you enjoy redundant writing, and get a thrill following the jolly antics of a woman who screams “Holy cow!” whenever what’s-his-name tightens the handcuffs, then you go, girl, or boy, but I’m pretty sure this is reading for “escape pleasure.”

Does this sound snobbish? I don’t think so. Genre fiction can get us through hard times, and so can pop music, but we’re talking a literature class here, a bunch of bright kids preparing themselves for the rigors of college reading, not the reading they’ll do on the weekends to put all thoughts of their gimlet-eyed English teacher out of their minds. If they can crack Lolita, if they can extract even a portion of its juice, if they can broaden their understanding of what literature is for, they’ll be closer to ready—not just for college lit classes, but, as my sister says, “for the actual shades of grey that a full rich life must be lived in.”

Lolita starts with language so poetic, so unusual, that even once you know of what, and of whom, our unreliable narrator Humbert Humbert speaks, the words still dance around in your head like a refrain, still beg to be spoken, to spill from your tongue as the syllables of his beloved’s nickname slip from Humbert’s: “Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta: the tip of the tongue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap, at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta.” Nabokov, in the voice of Humbert, seduces us with that language, draws us in, and in so doing makes us wonder if we are complicit in Humbert’s deeds. Our percolating discomfort lets us know his actions are wrong, wrong, wrong, but it’s hard not to feel sympathy for the devil. He’s pulled us inside his head. We feel his pain. Should we believe him? And the language is so gorgeous. We’re squirming not just in distaste, in revulsion at Humbert’s actions, but in delight, in awe at what that clever bastard Nabokov can do with language, at his power over words and through them his power over us. If we feel that thrill, that pressing desire to read on, then are we partly to blame for what happens?

If you want to be made even more uncomfortable, listen to Jeremy Irons read Lolita aloud, or read it when you have adolescent daughters—or, perhaps, read it in Tehran. But read it. Read it to understand how writing can be so powerful that people fear it, governments fear it, religions fear it. Read it to understand the possibilities inherent in literature, and to be grateful that, for the most part, we are free to read what we wish, from oft-banned books to forbidden fictions.


Sorting the Books, part 1

by juno on May 29, 2014

First published a year ago in The Public Humanist. Wonder where we are today?


It’s that time again. If you read, if you have a weakness for shiny stacks of paperbacks in airports, or the carousel of sale books at the library—they’re only a dollar!—then you know what happens. You stack a few sideways in the space between the upright books and the bottom of the next shelf, and then a few more. You clean up one set of shelves, and leave books you’ve cleared away—“Oh, I don’t want to read this right now”—in leaning towers on the floor of another room. You put some in boxes, which also have to sit somewhere.

If your children read as you do, they too hoard books, packing them into the cracks between bed and wall as a squirrel lines its nest with nuts, tucking them into drawers, into bins that are supposed to hold something practical like hats or scarves. If they’re industrious they also periodically throw a bunch in a box and leave it on the floor of your bedroom for you to trip over. You walk around your house wondering where you could squeeze in another bookshelf—just one more, you’re going to get rid of most of the books that won’t fit, but you’ve culled, oh, the fiction collection, as much as you can stand to. You need the rest of those books. You haven’t read them all yet. Your children might want to read them when they’re older.

This is where I am on a dull gray day, though the memory of the last big sort has not yet faded. Leave aside the boxes and boxes of books I’ve never even looked at, moldering in a neighbor’s barn—don’t even ask. Leave aside other family books I may have to deal with someday: when my father moved abroad he left his substantial collection in a friend’s attic, and since then has had time in his new life for many cycles of collecting and divesting. That house, attic and all, is for sale, and my father is thousands of miles away. Still, all I have to face now are the books on this property, in the house and in the studio, between which two buildings many books get carried back and forth.

In my youth, I confess, I looked at people’s bookshelves and thought they might hold the key to someone’s character or personality. Age has cured me of such nonsense, and the awareness that comes with age that unless we cull relentlessly—objects, mementoes, books, ideas, opinions, habits—the dregs of the past can weigh us down. People’s books can mean anything, who they were, who they hope they’ll be someday, what they can’t let go of, what they want more of in their life. Can I trust I’ll remember what I need to about my past without keeping all the autobiographical criticism I read in grad school? Can I accept that certain future selves are no longer a possibility, and get rid of the sign language dictionaries (not yet), Yoga Spandakarika(maybe), Carl Sandburg’s four volumes on Lincoln during the war years? Another no. I’d rather get rid of Yoga Spandakarika, and anyway my husband wants any book about Lincoln, and anyway—Carl Sandburg wrote four volumes about Lincoln during the war years!

Further considerations arise, from the mundane and practical to the existential and back:

  • We need to move the tall bookshelf out of the girls’ room. It lurks over my daughter’s bed and makes it hard for her to sleep. Plus, books get dusty—too many in a bedroom disturb the air quality, so in mine I try to keep it to just the hundred or so that I might want to read next. But oh, so many books to find a home for!
  • I’m pretty sure I could free a living room wall for additional bookshelves, but not until summer. Or maybe the summer after that.
  • If we build shelves over the toilet in the new basement bathroom, I might be able to move the entire poetry collection down there. But when?
  • What if it gets harder to buy real books? Won’t I wish I’d saved more for our dotage? Or will the words I want to read just be beamed, shimmering and vivid as tropical birds, into the foliage of the tree above the hammock in which I’m spending my last years?
  • Do I really need so many gardening books? So many plays? Livres en français? Health books? Who’s going to read about…? But when I walk around trying to find examples with which to finish that sentence, no matter what I use to fill in the blank, my answer is, “I mightI might. I might.”

You see the difficulty.



This piece was published one year ago in The Public Humanist:


It’s National Poetry Month, and while we could drink our way through an entire month of pure poetic delight without the well ever running dry, we (whisper) might not want to stop reading stories. Or, we might feel more at ease reading stories. Poems might be for us, as a friend of mine described recently, those things that don’t make sense.

“Grief calls us to the things of this world,” says the poet, and a love for words, for the sounds they make when pressed against each other, for the shock of surprise or recognition certain juxtapositions create, calls us to more words. Once we’ve tasted the joy of poetic language in our mouths, once we’ve heard words sing into our open ears in the voice of a beloved parent or friend, we want more.

But where does the first taste come from? One way is to fall into poems from fiction. Not just any fiction, but the sort in which the writer cares for every word and its place among its cohorts. I present you with four books. Each, while seducing you with the story it tells, will appeal to your ears and eyes, will seduce you into desire for poetic language, for more, more, more!

pishposhI believe fervently that if we want happy, brilliant, empathetic children we must read to them early and often (and talk to them endlessly, too—the studies are in). But beware the myriad dumb boring books read to kids in the misguided belief that they can’t yet understand anything more complex. They never will if that’s what you read them! Pish, Posh, Said Hieronymus Bosch, by Nancy Willard and the Dillons, is a book with pictures that will thrill and delight kids of any age while their ears learn to love the sound of words and grow toward understanding the meaning behind them. What kid doesn’t want to ride to school on the back of a pickle-winged fish? In the meantime, you, the reader, get to weep and sigh over beautifully spoken truths:

They’re not what I wished for. When women are young

they want curly-haired daughters and raven-haired sons.

In this vale of tears we must take what we’re sent,

feathery, leathery, lovely, or bent.

habibiOnce the kids are old enough for chapter books, read them Habibi, by poet Naomi Shihab Nye. Her love and feel for language inform every sentence she writes. In Habibi—darling, sweetheart, in both Arabic and Hebrew—you get not just a moving and profound story of a 14-year-old Palestinian-American girl transplanted from her American life in Saint Louis to a house between Jerusalem and Ramallah, a school in the Armenian section of Jerusalem, but writing that will make your mouth and ears happy as you read. Each chapter starts with a title, like the clang of a bell, and then a brief phrase—the resonance that carries in the air long after the bell has been rung. Her sentences are short and crisp, and her paragraphs are precise as poems.

thegoldengateBut I’m a grownup, you say. Well, start with Pish, Posh and Habibi anyway—you will always remember both. But for adults, with lives that we complicate so necessarily or unnecessarily, we have The Golden Gate. Vikram Seth, bless his mad heart, has written a whole novel in Onegin stanzas—sonnets with an ababccddeffegg rhyme scheme. I read it for the first time just after rereading Forster’s Aspects of the Novel, and so approached it with the question in mind: if it’s verse, can it really be a novel as Forster defines it? Yes, it has story, people and plot, fantasy and prophecy, pattern and rhythm. And such joy in language!

Directly to the morning after.

The sun shines brightly in. The birds’

Aubade replaces last night’s laughter,

Professor Pratt’s impassioned words,

The broken glasses, the emetic

Sheep music, even the splenetic

Yowls of the vengeful Charlemagne;

And all is quiet once again.

Slack, honey-humming weekend morning,

Sweet sanctuary from a world

In which we’re whipped and whisked and whirled!

John sloths in bed awhile, then, yawning,

Attends to coffee. Liz sleeps on,

Though once or twice she murmurs, “John.”

little.bigOne of my persistent sensations reading John Crowley’s Little, Big: or, The Fairies’ Parliament is that if he can write this well, if he can put such care into choosing just-right words, string them into extraordinary sentences, weave those into knock-my-socks off paragraphs, arrange those into lay-me-bare chapters (you can see I am naked by the time I set the book down), then why aren’t more of us getting in bed with language in this way and having the best sex of our lives? “Like a centrifuge, with infinite slowness accelerating, spring flung them all outward in advancing circles as it advanced, seeming (though how it was possible they couldn’t tell) to untangle the tangled skein of them and lay their lives out properly around Edgewood like the coils of a golden necklace: more golden as it grew warmer.” It’s National Poetry Month. Indulge. Poetic delight!


anniversary poem

by juno on March 31, 2014

I’m not a poet, but I am a fool for love. Happy anniversary, dear husband.

Rule-breaking Ghazal for Christopher
Gardens grow where we intend, I and thou—
Plants and cells divide portending two.
Spade in dirt, feet dark with soil,
My heart I—kneeling, bending—threw.
You fled when autumn came,
All gelid winter letters sending through.
Phlox, cosmos, spring from earth that we have tended.
What are you intending, though?
At summer’s end you kneel and ask—will I?
No less than my heart I’m lending thee.
Gardens, children, house and home—
Through all these years we’re tending true.




do a lot of work!

by juno on March 24, 2014

THE GAP by Ira Glass from frohlocke on Vimeo.